Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Wesley Foundation of Greenville
This has been bothering me...so I am just gonna throw this out there, because I feel like after I put this in writing rather than just saying it to my best friends maybe I will feel better.
A couple of weeks ago I went to Wesley after my rehearsal got out to give one of the guys something I borrowed of his back to him. When I walked in I gave the guy his thing back and was greeted by one of the girls and we talked about our running plans, because she is running a half marathon and I am running a 5K. After that short conversation I went to leave because my car was still running, only to find it was too hard to try to get out and the parking lot was packed. I went back in to let someone know that they needed to move their car so I could leave. A girl I am not great friends with moved her car and then I ended up just parking behind her car, feeling sort of guilty for not giving everyone a chance to say hi to me. I came back in and was greeted with a huge hug from one of my favorite Wesley guys, which was the highlight of my night! I proceeded to this years president of Welsey where she acted slightly irritating and rude. She did not ask me how I was doing, but where have I been and assumed I was not attending Wesley anymore. I am sorry, but you know you are representing a campus ministry when you talk to EVERYONE?! Especially on the campus ministry's grounds you should act humbly and be, at the least, nice to me. Then she found out my car was the one blocking her in from hauling ass out of the place...I moved my car and thought maybe I do not need to come back here. I went back inside after moving my car and got to see the pastor. He was sooooo happy to see me and very eager to show me the newly renovated kitchen my mom had donated money to make happen. It finally looks like what a church kitchen should look like and I am glad my name is a part of this. The pastor and I then talked about the several suicides due to bullying and how awful it is and how that was his sermon that night. He wished I could have been there to give my input, but I had rehearsal. Well, I stayed later than I had planned to, to hang with the guy who gave me a huge hug. He is part of the reason I would stay at Wesley.
Well, one of the other girls at Wesley lets call her Lindsey gets on my damn nerves. She is right up there with my appreciation towards the president of Wesley. Lindsey is the the Hospitality officer at Wesley and a sophomore at ECU, but acts like a first grader. Her and two of the guys from Wesley like to do this little secret stare and gaze at each other while I am trying to have a decent conversation with them and then laugh. I don't know what your inside jokes/secrets are and really don't care to find out, but I would appreciate the time I am trying to act and speak like an adult with you that you would reciprocate that and do me the same. Lindsey, the president, and the two guys are a part of the reason I do not want to come back to Wesley.
I have already spoken on the fact that noone ever contacted me after the fall semester began and how disrespected I feel because of that, so there is no need for me to go into that story. You know how I feel and that is a big part of why I do not like Wesley.
I do not care who reads this from Wesley, you cannot change how I feel without showing me the respect and love I deserve as your neighbor and a part of your family. As of now, I do not feel as though Wesley Foundation of Greenville is an important part of my week. I deserve better!
A couple of weeks ago I went to Wesley after my rehearsal got out to give one of the guys something I borrowed of his back to him. When I walked in I gave the guy his thing back and was greeted by one of the girls and we talked about our running plans, because she is running a half marathon and I am running a 5K. After that short conversation I went to leave because my car was still running, only to find it was too hard to try to get out and the parking lot was packed. I went back in to let someone know that they needed to move their car so I could leave. A girl I am not great friends with moved her car and then I ended up just parking behind her car, feeling sort of guilty for not giving everyone a chance to say hi to me. I came back in and was greeted with a huge hug from one of my favorite Wesley guys, which was the highlight of my night! I proceeded to this years president of Welsey where she acted slightly irritating and rude. She did not ask me how I was doing, but where have I been and assumed I was not attending Wesley anymore. I am sorry, but you know you are representing a campus ministry when you talk to EVERYONE?! Especially on the campus ministry's grounds you should act humbly and be, at the least, nice to me. Then she found out my car was the one blocking her in from hauling ass out of the place...I moved my car and thought maybe I do not need to come back here. I went back inside after moving my car and got to see the pastor. He was sooooo happy to see me and very eager to show me the newly renovated kitchen my mom had donated money to make happen. It finally looks like what a church kitchen should look like and I am glad my name is a part of this. The pastor and I then talked about the several suicides due to bullying and how awful it is and how that was his sermon that night. He wished I could have been there to give my input, but I had rehearsal. Well, I stayed later than I had planned to, to hang with the guy who gave me a huge hug. He is part of the reason I would stay at Wesley.
Well, one of the other girls at Wesley lets call her Lindsey gets on my damn nerves. She is right up there with my appreciation towards the president of Wesley. Lindsey is the the Hospitality officer at Wesley and a sophomore at ECU, but acts like a first grader. Her and two of the guys from Wesley like to do this little secret stare and gaze at each other while I am trying to have a decent conversation with them and then laugh. I don't know what your inside jokes/secrets are and really don't care to find out, but I would appreciate the time I am trying to act and speak like an adult with you that you would reciprocate that and do me the same. Lindsey, the president, and the two guys are a part of the reason I do not want to come back to Wesley.
I have already spoken on the fact that noone ever contacted me after the fall semester began and how disrespected I feel because of that, so there is no need for me to go into that story. You know how I feel and that is a big part of why I do not like Wesley.
I do not care who reads this from Wesley, you cannot change how I feel without showing me the respect and love I deserve as your neighbor and a part of your family. As of now, I do not feel as though Wesley Foundation of Greenville is an important part of my week. I deserve better!
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
There's a fine line between being nice and being creepy.
There is totally a fine line between being nice and being creepy and I will explain from experience.
I had this friend, let's call him Jimmy. Well, Jimmy and I became friends because we agreed on certain things and have common interests.
It seemed as though after we became friends, he would comment on my every Facebook status, uploaded photo, post unnecessary comments on my wall, he would send me event invitations and then immediately after he saw me online he would Facebook chat me to see if I was going. Things like that got really old really fast and I started to get annoyed with it. That's as far as I would take the friendship because I was not physically attracted to him nor did I have any interest in dating him.
I let him know that I did not have any feelings for him beyond friendship.
I gave him my number because we go to the same college, we were in some of the same classes/different times and we had lunch a couple of times, but he abused my cell phone by texting randomly with things that were not worth a text message reply.
I let him know that he was annoying me and for a little while he staved off on the comments and such. But, he thought after having one Facebook chat with me over the summer he could start blowing up my notifications again.
By the summer, he not only had my phone number and was friends with me on Facebook and commented on everything on there, he was now following me on twitter and mentioning me in tweets, asking me questions on formspring.me, and when I started this blog he was my only follower.
Jimmy seemed to have a very good memory, which was also a little on the creepy side. He would remember things that I had forgotten about and really could care less.
He would tell me a song about being in love with a girl was about me or a song from my favorite band was about me, and he would give me unwanted compliments - i.e. I don't need makeup to look beautiful. He may have thought these were nice gestures, but I didn't like him that way. So, I didn't want to hear it and felt uncomfortable when he would tell me things like that. He didn't understand why I was uncomfortable.
One night last fall I opened up to Jimmy and told him about a very dark part of my past, which took me a good while to get over and the consequences from my past. I trusted he could keep it a secret, which he did. But, last night he decided to show what grade he's actually in (1st grade) and boast to me in a Facebook message that he was so proud that he kept my secret for about a year. Well, because he said that it brought back the memories and I got upset. I told him not to say anything again and leave the past in the past. He apologized and then went all emo and said something along the lines of whenever one tries to give a nice gesture it WILL come back to bite them in the ass. That pissed me off and I told him how I felt and that I really did not expect him to remember what I said nor tell anyone. He got smart with me and said True Friends always remember. He really upset me and I calmly responded True friends don't bring up bad/hurtful memories. He said he needed to cool down and 7 minutes later completely switched gears and was acting like our conversation had never happened.
From the way he acted last night it is safe to say me and Jimmy are NOT friends anymore on any social network and it was my choice. Last night was the last thread of friendship I had with him...he brought something up from my past that I would rather keep there and I have tried to tolerate his annoyance, but it has been a long time coming...I'm finally saying I don't need his friendship. HOPEFULLY he will grow up and realize that this happens in life and he'll learn from his actions.
Getting back to the fine line is the fact that he would think he was being nice, but in my opinion he was being creepy. Hopefully, my friends, you will learn the difference between being nice and being creepy and not become a borderline creeper or cross that line. :)
I had this friend, let's call him Jimmy. Well, Jimmy and I became friends because we agreed on certain things and have common interests.
It seemed as though after we became friends, he would comment on my every Facebook status, uploaded photo, post unnecessary comments on my wall, he would send me event invitations and then immediately after he saw me online he would Facebook chat me to see if I was going. Things like that got really old really fast and I started to get annoyed with it. That's as far as I would take the friendship because I was not physically attracted to him nor did I have any interest in dating him.
I let him know that I did not have any feelings for him beyond friendship.
I gave him my number because we go to the same college, we were in some of the same classes/different times and we had lunch a couple of times, but he abused my cell phone by texting randomly with things that were not worth a text message reply.
I let him know that he was annoying me and for a little while he staved off on the comments and such. But, he thought after having one Facebook chat with me over the summer he could start blowing up my notifications again.
By the summer, he not only had my phone number and was friends with me on Facebook and commented on everything on there, he was now following me on twitter and mentioning me in tweets, asking me questions on formspring.me, and when I started this blog he was my only follower.
Jimmy seemed to have a very good memory, which was also a little on the creepy side. He would remember things that I had forgotten about and really could care less.
He would tell me a song about being in love with a girl was about me or a song from my favorite band was about me, and he would give me unwanted compliments - i.e. I don't need makeup to look beautiful. He may have thought these were nice gestures, but I didn't like him that way. So, I didn't want to hear it and felt uncomfortable when he would tell me things like that. He didn't understand why I was uncomfortable.
When I actually did want to talk to him he would try to get me to go to another campus ministry he was heavily a part of, but I didn't want to go due to the people that were a part of it and he didn't get that either.
One night last fall I opened up to Jimmy and told him about a very dark part of my past, which took me a good while to get over and the consequences from my past. I trusted he could keep it a secret, which he did. But, last night he decided to show what grade he's actually in (1st grade) and boast to me in a Facebook message that he was so proud that he kept my secret for about a year. Well, because he said that it brought back the memories and I got upset. I told him not to say anything again and leave the past in the past. He apologized and then went all emo and said something along the lines of whenever one tries to give a nice gesture it WILL come back to bite them in the ass. That pissed me off and I told him how I felt and that I really did not expect him to remember what I said nor tell anyone. He got smart with me and said True Friends always remember. He really upset me and I calmly responded True friends don't bring up bad/hurtful memories. He said he needed to cool down and 7 minutes later completely switched gears and was acting like our conversation had never happened.
From the way he acted last night it is safe to say me and Jimmy are NOT friends anymore on any social network and it was my choice. Last night was the last thread of friendship I had with him...he brought something up from my past that I would rather keep there and I have tried to tolerate his annoyance, but it has been a long time coming...I'm finally saying I don't need his friendship. HOPEFULLY he will grow up and realize that this happens in life and he'll learn from his actions.
Getting back to the fine line is the fact that he would think he was being nice, but in my opinion he was being creepy. Hopefully, my friends, you will learn the difference between being nice and being creepy and not become a borderline creeper or cross that line. :)
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
I have lost faith in my campus "ministry."
WARNING!!! THIS IS VERY CONTROVERSIAL AND EYE-OPENING!!!
I think it has been long enough, so I am going to tell all of those who were in the dark about the whole Wesley situation from last year and my thoughts on it now.
Well...the shit hit the fan last January when I was still attending Wesley regularly and the maintenance guy was fired because he got caught stealing money from Wesley, using Wesley's credit card to buy his gas, groceries, beer, and cigarettes. That's real classy don't cha think? (that's written sarcasm) Well with further investigation, once again they found another Wesley employee--the secretary--stealing money from Wesley, also. It just so happens that she is the minister's wife and the maintenance guy's mother. She stole the ministry's money by setting her hours on the computer, but she wouldn't show up for work all of those hours. So, she was getting paid for hours that she wasn't even working in the office; she was a little brighter than her son with stealing the money, but still neither of them were the brightest bulbs in the tanning bed so to speak. The minister was completely oblivious to this whole conspiracy, which at the time I felt bad for the poor guy. I especially felt bad for him when his wife went psycho bitch on him, thinking he was cheating on her. Where did she get the right to say that after SHE STOLE MONEY FROM A CAMPUS MINISTRY?!?! Later on though, when that was his excuse for EVERYTHING not getting done at Wesley. It got old and shit happens, but moving along...
So, I have been thinking about how I'm not going to Wesley this semester because I have Magnolia Belles rehearsal during Wesley's regular meeting time. Not a ONE person has bothered to reach out to me since classes started. I feel like that's a huge part of what makes a ministry work and I feel that they have just abandoned me...after ALL my family has done for that ministry I have not heard a single word from any of them.
I was an active member in Wesley for two years, I lived at the Methodist Student Center for 2 semesters of school, paid my rent on time, I served as an officer on Wesley's Officer team for a semester, after both of my grandparents died we donated their couch to Wesley because the parlors couches were way past their living condition, AND my mother donated $10,000 to the Wesley Foundation so that they could afford to renovate the 50+ year old kitchen in the Methodist Student Center.
The minister can "say" he's reached out to me, but he has been sending emails to my mother, not to me. Therefore, I do not think he has tried to reach out to me personally, plus he has my cell phone number, why hasn't he tried to call me?! I believe the only reason I hear anything about Wesley at all is because I have class with one of the guys in Wesley and the lame listserv.
The only people from Wesley who have cared to talk to me and keep in touch with me throughout all the drama and then some are one guy and two girls. They know who they are, so there is no need for me to name them. Something is wrong with that because the four of us don't even attend Wesley.
It's sad that you think you can find friends you will hold for a lifetime within a campus ministry and then when you have other plans that conflict with seeing them one day out of the week, they act like you don't exist anymore, no matter what day of the week it is...aren't you supposed to "reach out" to me and see how I am? You are a campus ministry right? Or are you just a facade of what a campus ministry is supposed to be?
Monday, September 27, 2010
Bruno Mars
I really love Bruno Mars as a musician. He can actually sing, make music I would give my time to listen to, and his new album is coming out soon sometime in October. Recently on September 19, 2010 after a show in Las Vegas he was arrested for alleged cocaine possession. Here is the full article on it because I don't feel like writing out the entire story:
http://music-mix.ew.com/2010/09/20/bruno-mars-cocaine-arrest/
Well my feeling on this is shit happens! People get busted everyday for drug possessions. He just happens to be a celebrity, so it's all over the news.
As I mentioned in my first blog, I am on twitter and I follow a lot of celebrities through this network. It is driving me insane that EVERYDAY Perez Hilton has to remind Bruno Mars that he needs to own up to his arrest.
I think it is Bruno Mars' decision when he wants to talk about it openly; it is his life, who am I to judge him for what he does or force him to say anything about his embarrassing/humiliating past. Hell it's already in the news, so I don't think it matters if he owns up to it or not.
For all we know his lawyer could have told him to not say anything about the situation so he won't dig his hole deeper than it already is right now. He could wait until November 18 to openly discuss this topic in court which is his tentative court date.
So, Perez Hilton needs to stop bitching about Bruno Mars not talking about his arrest and please try to focus on other celebrities out there! I know there are several ones you are close friends with or like to gossip about. So...LET IT GO & MOVE ON! :)
http://music-mix.ew.com/2010/09/20/bruno-mars-cocaine-arrest/
Well my feeling on this is shit happens! People get busted everyday for drug possessions. He just happens to be a celebrity, so it's all over the news.
As I mentioned in my first blog, I am on twitter and I follow a lot of celebrities through this network. It is driving me insane that EVERYDAY Perez Hilton has to remind Bruno Mars that he needs to own up to his arrest.
I think it is Bruno Mars' decision when he wants to talk about it openly; it is his life, who am I to judge him for what he does or force him to say anything about his embarrassing/humiliating past. Hell it's already in the news, so I don't think it matters if he owns up to it or not.
For all we know his lawyer could have told him to not say anything about the situation so he won't dig his hole deeper than it already is right now. He could wait until November 18 to openly discuss this topic in court which is his tentative court date.
So, Perez Hilton needs to stop bitching about Bruno Mars not talking about his arrest and please try to focus on other celebrities out there! I know there are several ones you are close friends with or like to gossip about. So...LET IT GO & MOVE ON! :)
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Hello Sunshine, Open Your Eyes!
*This blog is dedicated to Alli N. for helping give me that extra push to do this!* :)
Okay, this is my first blog. I'm pretty excited about it! :)
So to answer some questions people might have...
-My title of my blog is my favorite color-turquoise & I love to wear jewelry, dance, and sing.
-I decided to create this blog after talking to a few friends; I love to write and sometimes I feel twitter doesn't allow me to completely get out what I really feel.
-Also, I was told I would make a good sex/relationship columnist, haha.
-I like to say what's on my mind and keep people updated on my life.
-I will warn everyone now who reads this that what I do say is personal; I will tell it like it is, no filter, so don't say I didn't warn you!
-I will admit my humiliating acts and honestly it's a part of being human. So, don't get offended if YOU are mentioned in any of my blogs.
-I don't like to drop names of people, though, I will be polite enough in that sense to just say whether it is a man or a woman or give the people fictitious names, if necessary.
-Pretty much this will be a blog about the most random events in my life and my opinion on things, including: my choices in music, college life in general, things that interest me at the moment, sex, and a whole lot more.
For now I'm going to say goodbye. Hopefully you'll come back and read more of my stuff when I get to posting it! :)
Thank you!
Okay, this is my first blog. I'm pretty excited about it! :)
So to answer some questions people might have...
-My title of my blog is my favorite color-turquoise & I love to wear jewelry, dance, and sing.
-I decided to create this blog after talking to a few friends; I love to write and sometimes I feel twitter doesn't allow me to completely get out what I really feel.
-Also, I was told I would make a good sex/relationship columnist, haha.
-I like to say what's on my mind and keep people updated on my life.
-I will warn everyone now who reads this that what I do say is personal; I will tell it like it is, no filter, so don't say I didn't warn you!
-I will admit my humiliating acts and honestly it's a part of being human. So, don't get offended if YOU are mentioned in any of my blogs.
-I don't like to drop names of people, though, I will be polite enough in that sense to just say whether it is a man or a woman or give the people fictitious names, if necessary.
-Pretty much this will be a blog about the most random events in my life and my opinion on things, including: my choices in music, college life in general, things that interest me at the moment, sex, and a whole lot more.
For now I'm going to say goodbye. Hopefully you'll come back and read more of my stuff when I get to posting it! :)
Thank you!
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